Oh God, It’s Happening Again

We got another not so great news again in regards to Z’s health.

After spending the weekend in Penang and reaching home yesterday; N, Z, and I were feeling quite ill today morning. So after Husband left for work, I got ready and took the girls to the nearest Mediveron Clinic.

As the doctor was doing the checkups, I noticed that he took a longer time whilst listening to Z’s breathing. And the verdict was that the doctor heard a murmur in her heart and pretty much immediately wrote us a referral to get checked by a cardiologist. He even went as far as giving me the number to the Institut Jantung Negara (IJN).

As all this was going on, it felt like I got sucker punched in the gut. Like someone threw a baseball bat at my face, without me even seeing it coming.

Husband and I had always thought that we were pretty much done with Z having any major health issues as her gastroschisis has healed and she was thriving beautifully, Mashaallah. But now, with this news, we don’t really know what to make out it.

I have made all the necessary calls to make sure that Z can be seen by the cardiologist as soon as possible to have an echocardiogram done. Once her flu clears up, we’ll be heading into the hospital yet again with trepidation and zikr in our hearts, minds and lips.

May Allah SWT shows mercy on my beautiful little girl. May it just be an innocent murmur. May it just be mistake in diagnosis. Insyaallah.

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